I do this to myself…. so I suppose I fucking hate myself for it,

but I am so fucking sick of how I create these ideas in my head,

idolize people,

idealize situations,

and then get let down

over

and

over

again.

I wish I could blame someone else.

I could half blame Disney,

and the other half,

how my father treats my mother like a princess,

regardless of how insane she is acting.

I am an over-thinking idiot. 

I just wanted more. 

I just want to be something worth getting excited over.

It’s my own fucking stupid insecurities,

which are ironically what ruined things in the first place.

I guess that’s always my problem. 

Classic me.

I’m unfair, and I know it.

Fuck.

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Here’s a funny song that I wrote about a month ago. Lolz at me.

You used to be my favorite channel on TV

I’d watch you every night, until I got sleepy

But then you started playing reruns

Trying to pass them off as new ones

 

But still I stuck around like a loyal viewer

Even when your ratings went in the sewer

But you didn’t even notice

That I was the only one you had left

 

So today I finally cancelled my subscription

And asked my cable company for a refund

At first I didn’t want to see ya go

But now I’m happier to know

I got more time for HBO

 

Rather watch a day of Fox than an hour of you

Have Bill O’Rielly tell me what my lady parts should do.

My bleeding heart would cry

But it would still prefer those lies

 

Your ads would make you seem like a winner

Then why’d I have to twist your arm to buy me dinner

See I’m usually easy to please

But I refuse to beg on my knees

 

So today I finally cancelled my subscription

And asked my cable company for a refund

At first I didn’t want to see ya go

But now I’m happier to know

I got more time for HBO

 

I got more time for HBO oowhoaaahoh ohwoaaahoh ohwaaahoh

I got more time for HBO oowhoaaahoh ohwoaaahoh ohwaaahoh

I got Hannah

And Jessa, Doug Daniels

And Maggie too.

They won’t let me down or kick me like you do.

I got more time for HBO

And way more time for HBO-oooouuuwoooah oooooouuuwaaaahooooh.

So much more time for HBO. oowhoaaahoh ohwoaaahoh ohwaaahoh

 

 

It wouldn’t make much sense if I wrote in the chords…. so I spared you. You’re all welcome.