I do this to myself…. so I suppose I fucking hate myself for it,

but I am so fucking sick of how I create these ideas in my head,

idolize people,

idealize situations,

and then get let down

over

and

over

again.

I wish I could blame someone else.

I could half blame Disney,

and the other half,

how my father treats my mother like a princess,

regardless of how insane she is acting.

I am an over-thinking idiot. 

I just wanted more. 

I just want to be something worth getting excited over.

It’s my own fucking stupid insecurities,

which are ironically what ruined things in the first place.

I guess that’s always my problem. 

Classic me.

I’m unfair, and I know it.

Fuck.

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About dochasann

Twenty years of trials and triumphs. Sociology major living in NYC. Overly cynical. Witty when I feel like it. Obsessed with my puppy.

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